It's mid of March..
I want to say that i'm busy, but it's obviously not true.
I think i have a lot of time but i dunno why i'm lacking productivity... even just to update my own blog.
I want to push my self but i always failed.. i think i'm lacking strength to force... i always feel so tired even when i'm doing much. Feel such an old bum... ok i'm almost 30 and i'm still a student without a clear future (okok... it's a little bit exaggerating because i'm sure i can still find a decent job after graduate), but it's still uncertain till now and it's frustrating me.
I really want to graduate quickly... doesn't mean i hate school (because i love it so much) but i think it's hard and difficult to to a lot of think i want to do while i'm still struggling like now... and it's worse more ever because i dunno how to escape from this situation... now, i feel like take in everything without a proper filter mechanism. I feel like a sandbag...
It's totally pessimistic... I know...
It's not like i'm really depressing right now... not really...
I'm just need to write out loud what inside me so i can breath a little easier.
It's what the psychologist said isn't it?
Hehe...
I'm fine...
At least, you will be fine as long as you know what problems do you have...
Again as psychologist has said ^^
Everything will work out in the end...
