Everything will work out in the end...

Labels: - Wednesday, March 16, 2016

It's mid of March.. 

I want to say that i'm busy, but it's obviously not true.
I think i have a lot of time but i dunno why i'm lacking productivity... even just to update my own blog. 
I want to push my self but i always failed.. i think i'm lacking strength to force... i always feel so tired even when i'm doing much. Feel such an old bum... ok i'm almost 30 and i'm still a student without a clear future (okok... it's a little bit exaggerating because i'm sure i can still find a decent job after graduate), but it's still uncertain till now and it's frustrating me. 
I really want to graduate quickly... doesn't mean i hate school (because i love it so much) but i think it's hard and difficult to to a lot of think i want to do while i'm still struggling like now... and it's worse more ever because i dunno how to escape from this situation... now, i feel like take in everything without a proper filter mechanism. I feel like a sandbag... 

It's totally pessimistic... I know...
It's not like i'm really depressing right now... not really...
I'm just need to write out loud what inside me so i can breath a little easier.
It's what the psychologist said isn't it?
Hehe...
I'm fine...
At least, you will be fine as long as you know what problems do you have...
Again as psychologist has said ^^

Everything will work out in the end... 

Reflection

Labels: - Sunday, December 27, 2015

Dec 27th 2015

Heol... its already closer to the end of 2015.. It feels like just yesterday we celebrate new year and now were gonna leave it behind. Time surely flies so fast...There is a said that when you dont feel the times gone, its because you are did something exciting and fun, hmm... dont quite agree though... (at least in my case :D)
Entahlah... even banyak kejadian yang cukup memorial di tahun ini, tapi rasanya im not doing good enough... seperti sangat tidak produktif dan wasting so much time for nothing.

Reflection time :
First of all, tahun ini beberapa bucket list bisa terkabul... bisa traveling ke Penang dan bisa taking postgraduate school adalah pencapaian yg cukup signifikan tahun ini. Sayang banget ga jadi ke Rote untuk jadi relawan Indonesia Mengajar. Thats my biggest regret this year... hehe... but they say that something you let go will comeback to you eventually, its just need a right time and right moment... be patience!!! ^^

Next year, honestly i dont really have a great expectation. Because im just gonna focus on my study and my research. And theres not much i can do, because i have a limiting budget... (i'm a master jobless student)
Im just hope that everything is going well with my study... nothing more than that... hehe...

Wish me Luck...

My Trip to Penang

Labels: , - Wednesday, August 12, 2015

It's 3.33 am and i'm full of caffeine so i'm fully awake. Can't sleep, so i'm just going to posting about my trip to Penang, Malaysia last April. Been waiting and expecting for this trip, cause i'm so craving about walking around Georgetown. And finally got a free time, affordable flight ticket and trip mates. Yey... *seal clap*

Our trip plan was taking a flight to KLIA and then from there going to the bus station called Pudu Raya and take a night bus to Penang. Quite long trip i know but it's worth and more affordable.

Heres some of picture i had take in this trip.
1st Stop was Suria KLCC because my friends never visit KL before and really wanna see Petronas Twin Tower. But, because we arrive around noon, it's really uncomfortable because it's too hot.




 



 

 



 

 1st day in Penang.

 
Komtar & Prangin Mall

Walking around GT


1st stop : Mural Hunting





 





Hehe... suddenly feel so tired. Will post again next time.

My Current State and How I Feel About It

Labels: , - Monday, August 10, 2015

So, a year had gone and now i'm a jobless girl that trying to bet her fortune by entering a hell (read : collage) once again. Hehe... i know it a little bit metaphoring, but since i'm actually not really sure and confident about what i already choose, i say it like that. Honestly i'm afraid. Is this decision was right or not. Is there really a significant difference about doing it or not. Kind of thought... and it being more complicated by day. But, since it alredy decised, i'm just need to working harder and make sure it lead to the right path. Ah, wish me luck!

In this past year, i'm trying to be more wise person. I know, trying to change the way you are is difficult, but i'm tired holding a lot grudge on my mind. So, i choose to let it go, all of them...

The first thing i do that been a while suffocating me was about my old friends. My high school best friend. Since i left my home town years ago, we literally being so drifted. There is always a say like "Time never change people" or "There is nothing can change friendship" and more... But in my case, what happen was totally the opposite. In the end, i feel like being left out because i dunno anything about them anymore. And asking about them feel so awkward and just not right. Even they still there, the feel was already gone. I feel like were doing friendship just for formality. To make people around us keep silent and not asking anything. What the hell friendship like that...
But, now i'm done with that thought. I don't wanna being hurt about it anymore. If we can stay the same, so what?? Just doing what left... and stop expecting more. Maybe we can't be best friend anymore, so let just deleted the best word and stay as a friend. what so hard about it? I just don't wanna say you guys still my bff because the fact is were not anymore. Best friend is supposed to have more than we have now... let's face it now... let's stop pretending were still fine and same, because were not... and there is nothing wrong about it. It just what we called life. If life stay same, when we'll growing up?
So, i left them go. Maybe they dunno what i feel, but the point is not them but my self. I left them go, so i can breath more easily and lightning my burden. Before, i was scared about losing them, but now, after it done i realize that i'm more than fine. Still, i cherish the memory with them. It was one of my best moment in my life. I really thank them for being my best friend at that time. Now, i'll see you as friend and let's getting along well.



toodles ^^

Omg, My Last Post Almost a Year Ago

Labels: - Sunday, August 9, 2015

Ok... i had been so disappearing lately and being so unproductive. Looking back to my last post, it's on October last year, ckckck... dunno what make me so busy... hehe...

So, to lift up my mood, i'm just finish doing a reconstruction project on my blog theme, so, goodbye dark theme and welcome bright and cute one ^^
Let see if i can really keep my word to writing more frequently...

The last 10 months, there's a lot of things happen and a lot of things change. Big news, i'm not working anymore and just (pretending) busy preparing my post graduated study next September. So, basically, i had a lot of time... hehe...
I'll try write about it as much as possible in my next post (not now, i'm sleepy. Maybe tomorrow... ^^)

toodles

My Korean Day

Labels: , , - Friday, October 10, 2014

3-5 Oktober kemarin ada Korea-Indonesia Festival gitu di Lotte Shopping Avenue, Kuningan. Sebenarnya udah lama banget gw pengen maen ke Lotte which is dengar2 mall itu Korea banget, so sekalian deh.. mumpung lagi ada k-fest juga. 
Hal lain yang juga attracting gw banget adalah karena gw pengen nyobain makan di School Food Blooming Mari, which is you know what??? Itu restoran dari Korea yang di Korea-nya di pake shooting EXO's Showtime... Aaaaaaaaaaaaaah.... can't be excited more... ^^
Emang sih enaknya di sana makan rame-rame, karena porsinya lumayan besar dan harganya cukup bikin kantong miris. But the taste is yum... beneran deh, gw waktu itu nyobain squid mari alias kimbab yang isinya cumi, sama jigae ramyeon yang suprisingly ga pedes sama sekali (soalnya gw expect semua makanan korea yg warnanya merah2 itu pasti pedas hehe...) and lastly nyobain topokki... dan kalau yang satu ini is totally super hot... tapi tetap enak, apalagi makannya waktu masih panas... toek atau rice cake-nya itu kenyal dan empuk, but in my opinion kalau sausnya diganti pake tomato sauce with a little bit soy sauce and vinegear must be suitable for me... hehe... (because i can't really take a spicy food). But still... it surpass my expectation... so it was great!!!


>>Uwwwaaaaa.... Look at the food... 

 Abis Makan gw nyambangin main stage festivalnya and watching the spectaculer performance from The Painters Hero. I know... i know... many people maybe still unfamiliar with this group. So i'll give a brief explanation. So, The Painters Hero is a non-verbal performance that stage the entire process of painting combined with incredible visual effects and a witty blend of mime, dance, and comedy. Gw juga sebenarnya ga tahu sama sekali tentang mereka sebelumnya, but honestly after watching their performance i'm being a fan. Uwwwwwaaah... perform-nya daebak... keyeeeen buangeeets... all thumbs up!!! 

>> Ini beberapa pics yg gw take waktu itu, but i think u should watch it the show to know how great they are... 

Sesi berikutnya adalah selfie... haha... Thanks to Lotte Duty Free yang nyediain a lot of venue buat narsis2an... :p


 
>>Look at that palm print... those are Suju's member... how cute...

>> And I finally meet Haha Oppa sibling... Pororo-sshi... hehe...

>>It was a free offering from Lotte to take a pic wearing hanbok... and a good women never refuse something free right... hehe...


I wish, Lotte bikin acara daebak kaya gini sering2... hehe...

toodles ^^

Percayalah, Setelah Badai Pasti Akan Ada Pelangi

Labels: - Thursday, October 2, 2014



Hidup ini mudah, kalau dibutuhkan, ya datang, kalau sudah tak dibutuhkan, ya pergi, pergi mencari tempat baru yang membutuhkan. Jangan sedih, apalagi sakit hati, karena percayalah, semua hal terjadi dengan alasan. Kalau kau tak memahami alasannya, bukan karena tidak ada, mungkin karena kau dan mereka melihatnya dari sisi yang berbeda. Kau tak perlu tahu, cukup percaya saja. Itu akan membantumu bergerak ke depan. Kau satu mahluk dengan jalan cerita yang sudah Tuhan atur sejak kau Ia menciptakanmu. Percayalah Ia pasti punya tempat untukmu. Kalau bukan disini, yah mungkin disana. Itu bukan masalah selama kau yakin padaNya. Jangan menangis, itu tak menyelesaikan masalah. Jangan rendahkan pandanganmu, itu membuatmu terlihat lemah. Tersenyumlah dan pastikan mereka melihatmu dengan tatapan menyesal suatu hari nanti. Ingat saja perasaannmu hari ini dan itu akan membuatmu kuat. Kau bukan anak kecil lemah, kau adalah wanita kuat dengan kemampuan yang tak kau bayangkan. Percayalah, kau punya kemampuan itu, kalau tidak kau tak akan sampai disini, sejauh ini. Akan selalu ada jalan. Akan selalu ada terang setelah terowongan gelap panjang. Akan selalu ada senyum dibalik tangis dan akan selalu ada pelangi bahkan setelah badai memporak-porandakan istana pasir yg telah susah payah kau bangun. Percayalah... Percaya saja... Itu sudah cukup untuk saat ini. Dan bersabarlah... Tuhan tidak pernah salah membuat cerita hidup hambaNya. 

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